I know that I was the worst eater as a child but it doesn't make it better or even okay to have to deal with it when it's your own child. It's really frustrating and tiring and annoying.
There is no doubt in my mind for one second that I am to blame for being lazy, tired, bored, not a good eater myself, not taking risks with offering foods, but now I'm just done.
I DREAD meal time, almost every single one, every single day. Emma is awful. Not even a little bit, just awful, I hate going to other peoples homes with her, I hate sending her to play dates, I just hate eating with her. Hate is such a strong word, maybe dread is better. I dread it. On several occassions I have tried the you have to eat whatever is around and if you only eat dessert that's up to you, but that was a reward. I now pack food for her. There are certain places I can go where I don't worry about it, but other places I will either get her McDonalds or pack her food. I have packed her food on several play dates to make it easier for her and the people hosting the play date.
She has go to foods, cereal, pancakes, pizza,bread and butter, bagels, bananas, pizza, McD's cheeseburger, but other than that it stinks, it really stinks when we want to go out to eat and can't because there's nothing on the menu that Emma will eat. There are a handful of restaurants that we can go to if mac and cheese is on the menu or grilled cheese (neither of these will she eat if I make), and it's reached the point where I don't even want to give her food anymore. She admitted to me today that even at lunch when I make her a cheese sandwhich she takes the cheese off and eats the bread and mayo. GROSS, but I understand, that's the part that kills me, I don't want her to end up looking and feeling like me. But I have created this monster and now I don't know what to do about it.
I know that I should just stop buying her comfort foods and replace them with things she likes but watching her choke down something she doesn't like brings back horrible memories for me and I don't want to do that to her, but at the same time I don't know what to do anymore.
Kailee is a more adventerous eater, she will TRY just about anything, not necessarily liking it but trying it none the same.
Gabrielle on the other hand eats everything I make and loves just about 99% of it all, thank God for somethings!
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Itsy Bitsy Spider
The past few days have been busy! Gabby loves the Itsy Bitsy Spider song and is learning the hand movements to go with it, it's really funny to watch her, I hope this video captures how funny it is!
Gabby's Walking!
Finally able to get her in action on video! She is still mostly crawling but is taking more steps more often now throughout the day. Today she was even brave enough to drink and walk and carry some toys around with her!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
14 months old
14 months old has always been a big milestone for me. I really can't believe that I've reached that milestone for the last time. My little baby is 14 months old!
This is a big month age for me because that is how old Emma was when I had Kailee!! I look at Gabby and can't imagine that I had a newborn and a 14 month old! I would be able to handle it fine just like I did the first time around but when I really think about it, Gabby is so small and doesn't communicate well and is so dependent but yet independent.
When I look back, I think that Emma was more independent and I think she was talking a lot more than Gabby is but I'm not really sure. I have to try and hook up the old video camera and watch the videos of her and Kailee when they were small.
Gabby is imitating and learning more and more everyday. She has not walked again since last Saturday and that is fine, she'd rather hold the girls hands and walk with them than on her own.
She can do the itsy bitsy spider when I sing it and that brings back a ton of memories of Emma at this age also.
Kailee is doing wonderful! We had her evaluation meeting last Friday and everyone is in agreement over how much she has improved but we also do agree that she needs to continue with her OT and extra work to continue to improve and strengthen her movements to prepare her for Kindergarten. Kindergarten has a lot of writing involved and she is not ready for that much pencil and paper work. They have to reevaluate her because she is turning 5 but they expect her to be general education with related services which is not a doubt in my mind, she is above average in academics she just has the issue with her fine motor and gross motor skills. I am very happy with the outcome and look forward to enjoying her progress and successes!
We are official NJ Residents now! I have a drivers license and the car is registered and insured. It was not that big of a deal as I thought it was going to be. I have also finally gotten my first proof of identification in my married name! Considering we will be married 7 years in May I'd say it's about time.
I have been super busy around the house and loving it! I have gotten more projects done in the first 20 days of this year than I had in the past two years and it feels so good!
I have 1 or 2 really large projects to do but I have to really get in the mood to do them and I have had such good motivation in the past few weeks that I don't want to loose the momentum but I also know that if I force myself to tackle these projects they will not be done the proper way and I will feel as if it's more of a chore than a project I am looking forward to completeing and enjoying the benefits and releif of accomplishing it!
On another note, we are still nursing! 14 months and counting! I am so glad that I am still nursing but I see that the change is coming. We were out all day yesterday and we went 12 hours without nursing at all and we were both fine! I'm so glad, I'm thinking if I can string a few of those days together we'll be great and down to only nursing at night. The easier part of yesterday was because we were out all day and naps were taken in the car, not sure about today.
Her sleeping at night has become more independent and longer also, I'm thinking that we are getting 4-6 hour stretches with out snuggling or nursing and her sleeping in the center of the bed away from my stretched out on her belly. It's great! I'm looking forward to the possibility of sleeping straight through the night again, it's been a really long time for me since that happened.
Gabby is incredible! She brings such joy to me and I look at her and enjoy her so much, she has an incredible relationship with her sisters and a personality that knocks your socks off. She is a lot like Emma she always has paper and a pen or crayon near by!
This is a big month age for me because that is how old Emma was when I had Kailee!! I look at Gabby and can't imagine that I had a newborn and a 14 month old! I would be able to handle it fine just like I did the first time around but when I really think about it, Gabby is so small and doesn't communicate well and is so dependent but yet independent.
When I look back, I think that Emma was more independent and I think she was talking a lot more than Gabby is but I'm not really sure. I have to try and hook up the old video camera and watch the videos of her and Kailee when they were small.
Gabby is imitating and learning more and more everyday. She has not walked again since last Saturday and that is fine, she'd rather hold the girls hands and walk with them than on her own.
She can do the itsy bitsy spider when I sing it and that brings back a ton of memories of Emma at this age also.
Kailee is doing wonderful! We had her evaluation meeting last Friday and everyone is in agreement over how much she has improved but we also do agree that she needs to continue with her OT and extra work to continue to improve and strengthen her movements to prepare her for Kindergarten. Kindergarten has a lot of writing involved and she is not ready for that much pencil and paper work. They have to reevaluate her because she is turning 5 but they expect her to be general education with related services which is not a doubt in my mind, she is above average in academics she just has the issue with her fine motor and gross motor skills. I am very happy with the outcome and look forward to enjoying her progress and successes!
We are official NJ Residents now! I have a drivers license and the car is registered and insured. It was not that big of a deal as I thought it was going to be. I have also finally gotten my first proof of identification in my married name! Considering we will be married 7 years in May I'd say it's about time.
I have been super busy around the house and loving it! I have gotten more projects done in the first 20 days of this year than I had in the past two years and it feels so good!
I have 1 or 2 really large projects to do but I have to really get in the mood to do them and I have had such good motivation in the past few weeks that I don't want to loose the momentum but I also know that if I force myself to tackle these projects they will not be done the proper way and I will feel as if it's more of a chore than a project I am looking forward to completeing and enjoying the benefits and releif of accomplishing it!
On another note, we are still nursing! 14 months and counting! I am so glad that I am still nursing but I see that the change is coming. We were out all day yesterday and we went 12 hours without nursing at all and we were both fine! I'm so glad, I'm thinking if I can string a few of those days together we'll be great and down to only nursing at night. The easier part of yesterday was because we were out all day and naps were taken in the car, not sure about today.
Her sleeping at night has become more independent and longer also, I'm thinking that we are getting 4-6 hour stretches with out snuggling or nursing and her sleeping in the center of the bed away from my stretched out on her belly. It's great! I'm looking forward to the possibility of sleeping straight through the night again, it's been a really long time for me since that happened.
Gabby is incredible! She brings such joy to me and I look at her and enjoy her so much, she has an incredible relationship with her sisters and a personality that knocks your socks off. She is a lot like Emma she always has paper and a pen or crayon near by!
Sunday, January 17, 2010
And She's Off!!
Gabby took a few steps yesterday towards Louie several times!! I am so filled with pride and sadness, my baby is growing up faster and faster yet again.
I am relieved to report that she is still mostly is crawling but I know time is up sooner rather than later for that!
I really wish she would have started talking before walking, the grunting, pointing and whining are way more frustrating than watching her crawl every where!!
Pictures and video will come eventually, I was too excited yesterday to even try to get it on video, maybe today will be the day!
I am relieved to report that she is still mostly is crawling but I know time is up sooner rather than later for that!
I really wish she would have started talking before walking, the grunting, pointing and whining are way more frustrating than watching her crawl every where!!
Pictures and video will come eventually, I was too excited yesterday to even try to get it on video, maybe today will be the day!
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